[17] Boredom.

So I'm sitting here in the caf with a bunch of people.

I've been having an off day today, and I'm not really sure why.
Just one of those days I guess.

I'm kinda unmotivated to do anything productive at all.
I'm just blah.

In other news, I found out something about this kid in one of my classes.
Talk about a mind fuck. Lol.
I had no idea.

Thats the first time that I've ever not known about that kind of thing. Hm.

I'm so blah I don't even know what to talk about.
So, bye.

[16] Ugh.

So sometimes you just get annoyed, right?
Annoyed to be around people?

But sometimes you just gotta put on a front, that things are cool.
But you really don't care.

I'm feelin' like that right now.


Thoroughly annoyed. But. Cool.

[15] ohai.

What the fuck.
I forgot about this.

Lol.

Maybe I'll use it?

[14] What?

I have one of these?
I totally forgot.

Thanks Johnny boy, for updating, and reminding me of mine.

Here's an update of my life; that no one reads.
ready go.
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State of mind
Current mood:down

Hmm..



So this is a much needed blog. I need to get some things out.

So I don't kill myself or something.





So this semester, much like last semester, FAU has fucked me over. Once
again they "forgot" to enroll me into my private lessons (which you
need per semester). So now, I have to go through a late add
process...which involves talking to the people that suck some serious
fail every morning. You know, the people that don't know how to be nice
even if someone gave them fifteen thousand bucks for doing their jobs
right. Assholes.



Last semester, they didn't approve my wave-the-late-fee forum. So. I
had to pay an extra $100 bucks for the class. Now, this time, it'll be
an extra $200 bucks, since the class is two credits. And now it's going
to happen. Again.



I don't have the fucking money to pay for the mistake of my advisor.

Fucked up?

Yes.



I'm completely unmotivated with school this term. I just want it to be over.



I have the CLAST re-take exam in February. If I don't pass - I'm not allowed to re-enroll in school until I do pass.

So, looks like I might have the up coming summer and fall off.....

This is terrible. If I don't get enrolled in summer and/or fall - I'll just end up not going back to school.

What a life that would be.



Crystal Palms sucks. I hate them.



I have a recital in March. I'm not really stressing out since it's only
a 30 minute recital. I just really don't wanna do it. I don't have a
date for my pre-hearing. I need to know when that is. That, I am
freaking about. I swear to god if FAU "forgets" that I have a recital
this semester - I'm leaving. I'll transfer somewhere else. Or just
change my major.



Which brings me to another note. Because of my depression(?) lately,
I've been thinking about my future. Do I really want to teach forever?
I don't know. How do I know what I want to do? I've been under the
impression of being a band director since 7th grade. That's a lonnnnng
fuckin' time, aye? I don't know so much about it anymore. I mean. I
haven't even had a "normal" job before. One that everyone complains
about. One that everyone gets all angry at the people of their city.
Those of you that have that, and hate it, are taking advantage of it.



I'm 21 years old and I've never had a regular job. Nor am I as independent as I want to be.

I'm fucking pathetic.



And the relationship life isn't going anywhere. Well.. No. That's a lie.

I'm just waiting on ... well.. I'm just waiting.

It's kind of a gay situation (haha, oh the pun). But.

To me, it's worth the wait and the frustration for now. I mean, when
was the last time I had anyone in my life? Fall 2007. So. What's a few
more months waiting.



When he's mentally stable enough, I'll be here.

I guess.



I've been hating music a lot lately.

I hate Wind Ensemble this term, along with Orchestra and Pep Band. In
fact, I don't even want to do pep band this semester. The only thing
I'm excited for is Percussion Ensemble. That's it.



I've been in school too long.

Some of my friends that have been in it for like ever - I don't know how they do/did it. Crazy.



I've just been really down lately. From a majority of things.

Just feels like I'm alone in the world lately. Some of you might say that I'm not - and you're here for me. But. Yeah.



It's cool.

[13] Olympics

The Olympics..

Look, I don't know much about gymnastics, but I do know that landing a vault on two feet is better than landing one on two knees. Olympic gymnastics judges evidently disagree with me, as they awarded China's Cheng Fei a bronze medal yesterday even after she fell on her vault landing. American Alicia Sacramone finished fourth despite, you know, not falling.

And today, 12-year old 16-year old Chinese gymnast He Kexin won gold over Nastia Liukin based on an obscure tiebreaking rule. The two received the same score from the judges, but He won a tiebreak because an Australian judge apparently was watching a different competition.

Every judging break seems to have gone China's way during these Olympics. I'm not suggesting a conspiracy, I just think that judges are humans who are influenced by big names, fans and other external factors. Oh, and they're also terrible. Judged events will always be viewed with skepticism by those who lose for this reason, particularly those who lose to a member of the home delegation. (Think Roy Jones Jr. at the 1988 Seoul Olympics.)

It is because of this skewed inconsistency that Fourth-Place Medal introduces The Real 2008 Medal Count. Our medal count will tally medals won in sports decided on the field of play, not by a judge in a teal blazer.

The judged Olympic events we will ignore for our tally are: boxing, diving, equestrian, gymnastics, judo, taekwondo, trampoline and wrestling. We debated whether to include boxing, wrestling and the martial arts in the list, as they can

The Real 2008 Medal Count

China: 22 gold; 11 silver; 11 bronze

United States: 21 gold; 19 silver; 21 bronze

As you can see, in the events where medals are determined by competitors rather than judges, the gold medal gap between China and the U.S. is greatly narrowed, and the total medal count is an American runaway. Counting the judged events, China has a commanding lead in golds. Hmmm... Nope, nothing fishy about that!

[12] Really?

What's your name, darling?:
Is this a black woman questioning me? Chris.


What do you say we leave for California?:
eh... florida is fine.


Did you hear that Bernie Mac died?:
Yeah :(


Have you ever seen the movie Requiem For A Dream?:
DUH.



Do you ever think that someone is going to come in your house at night time and kill you and your family?:
Um. no.
wtf?

Have you ever wanted to drink blood?:
NO!

Have you ever beat the shit outta someone and been proud of what you did?:
hsietuhaeij a long time ago.



Do you go on IMVU?:
no.


Did you hear that prostitution was the world's oldest profession?:
fuck yeah.



Did you know that the Devil went down to Georgia and he was looking for a soul to steal?:
lol. dumb.



Have you ever read the book Burned?:
no.


Do you ever want to just curb stomp a stupid bitch that was getting on your damn nerves?:
you're getting up there.


Did you know the number '172' can be found on the back of the U.S.

5 dollar bill in the bushes at the base of the Lincoln Memorial?:
i do now.



Do you like Lil Wayne or just find him annoying?:
annoying - sometimes.


What's your least played song on your iPod, if you have one?:
lol.. i just reset my ipod.



Do you know who Frank Iero is?:
ys

Have you ever had Spermies?:
?!

Did you know that Monday was the favorite day for suicide?:
grouhorijwkbmsrbioseipbnes



Speaking of suicide... did anyone you know commit suicide, and if so, how?:
eroithja9e8rhaq3r89hJNSEROHIJSOIJSDGOBJSNDBJN


What does under your bed look like?:
BLACK LIKE YOUR FUCKING SOUL


Can you ride your bike with no handlebars?:
no :(

Do you think Aaron Gillespie from Underoath and The Almost is sexy?:
no.



My friends little sister is the spawn of Lucifer, do you know any little kids that you think are the devil's work?:
erijeiorjoiejhoaie


Which spelling do you like better, Rosa or Roza?:
EAIRHJAEIHJAEIHJAEITHJAKMBSDGOBS


Don't you get annoyed when surveys have the same old questions?:
YOU'RE ANNOYING


Do you listen to Death Cab for Cutie? If so, what's your favorite song by them?:
iejsthoiej5hoaiejhoaidjhtzodjknsdjknzdosrgnqp4ihgq3p05h9jiohtnsrbjlk


Are your nails painted? What color?:
!???~#T@$#QGES


Do you think Trace Cyrus from Metro Station is hot?:
eruhgaiuerh

If you have a calendar is it on the right month?:
YES.



Does your mom always think your room is dirty when really it's actually quite clean?:
no.


Have you ever been on the ride Steel Force at Dorney Park?:
sETRHWQ#%JW$JR$S

Insert a picture of a famous person you find VERY attractive:
YOUR MOM



What kind of survey was that?!

[11] Torn.

I finally saw Batman, and let me just say, it was the best $7.50 spent in a long time. I need to go see it in IMAX, but I'm waiting just a bit longer. Heath Ledger did a fantastic job. He's the best joker, ever.

I've been teaching little kids at a music camp for the whole week so far, from around 9AM to 4PM. I'm not so much a fan of late elementary/early middle school kids, however the fact that it's $25.00 an hour, it's totally worth it. It's definitely building up my patience, so I'm getting more out of it than just money.

As I would want to type more, I simply can't. New episode of Project Runway.