I totally forgot.
Thanks Johnny boy, for updating, and reminding me of mine.
Here's an update of my life; that no one reads.
ready go.
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State of mind
Current mood:down
So this is a much needed blog. I need to get some things out.
So I don't kill myself or something.
So this semester, much like last semester, FAU has fucked me over. Once
again they "forgot" to enroll me into my private lessons (which you
need per semester). So now, I have to go through a late add
process...which involves talking to the people that suck some serious
fail every morning. You know, the people that don't know how to be nice
even if someone gave them fifteen thousand bucks for doing their jobs
right. Assholes.
Last semester, they didn't approve my wave-the-late-fee forum. So. I
had to pay an extra $100 bucks for the class. Now, this time, it'll be
an extra $200 bucks, since the class is two credits. And now it's going
to happen. Again.
I don't have the fucking money to pay for the mistake of my advisor.
Fucked up?
Yes.
I'm completely unmotivated with school this term. I just want it to be over.
I have the CLAST re-take exam in February. If I don't pass - I'm not allowed to re-enroll in school until I do pass.
So, looks like I might have the up coming summer and fall off.....
This is terrible. If I don't get enrolled in summer and/or fall - I'll just end up not going back to school.
What a life that would be.
Crystal Palms sucks. I hate them.
I have a recital in March. I'm not really stressing out since it's only
a 30 minute recital. I just really don't wanna do it. I don't have a
date for my pre-hearing. I need to know when that is. That, I am
freaking about. I swear to god if FAU "forgets" that I have a recital
this semester - I'm leaving. I'll transfer somewhere else. Or just
change my major.
Which brings me to another note. Because of my depression(?) lately,
I've been thinking about my future. Do I really want to teach forever?
I don't know. How do I know what I want to do? I've been under the
impression of being a band director since 7th grade. That's a lonnnnng
fuckin' time, aye? I don't know so much about it anymore. I mean. I
haven't even had a "normal" job before. One that everyone complains
about. One that everyone gets all angry at the people of their city.
Those of you that have that, and hate it, are taking advantage of it.
I'm 21 years old and I've never had a regular job. Nor am I as independent as I want to be.
I'm fucking pathetic.
And the relationship life isn't going anywhere. Well.. No. That's a lie.
I'm just waiting on ... well.. I'm just waiting.
It's kind of a gay situation (haha, oh the pun). But.
To me, it's worth the wait and the frustration for now. I mean, when
was the last time I had anyone in my life? Fall 2007. So. What's a few
more months waiting.
When he's mentally stable enough, I'll be here.
I guess.
I've been hating music a lot lately.
I hate Wind Ensemble this term, along with Orchestra and Pep Band. In
fact, I don't even want to do pep band this semester. The only thing
I'm excited for is Percussion Ensemble. That's it.
I've been in school too long.
Some of my friends that have been in it for like ever - I don't know how they do/did it. Crazy.
I've just been really down lately. From a majority of things.
Just feels like I'm alone in the world lately. Some of you might say that I'm not - and you're here for me. But. Yeah.
It's cool.
